A Piece of My Life

I can still remember vividly the day I saw you. You looked really cute with that beautiful eyes, charming smile, and tufted hair. At that moment, I fell in love with you instantly, did you know that Bao?. I thought that I’d make you happy, I’d teach you cool things to do, little did I know. It was you who taught me a lot of things and I thank you for that.

Thank you for teaching me how to love unconditional.
Thank you for teaching me the meaning of loyalty.
Thank you for teaching me “no matter what you do, I won’t get mad”.
Thank you for teaching me how to stay happy no matter what.
Thank you for teaching me how to have fun.
Thank you for waiting for me while I work at night.
Thank you for licking my face to wake me up in the morning.
Thank you for jogging with me in the morning.
Thank you for sitting nicely while waiting for me to read a newspaper
Thank you for the free kiss.
Thank you for hugging me at night.
Thank you for loving me with every beat of your heart…
I hope you know that I love you with every fiber in my body and every beat of my heart too.

“She was my friend, my partner, my defender, my dog. I was her life, her love, her leader. She was mine, faithful and true, to the last beat of her heart. I owe it to her to be worthy of such devotion.”

Letting you go was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It broke my heart into million little pieces and I don’t know how to put all those pieces back together. I screamed to God I would give 10 years of my life for you. Every inch of my body is screaming in agony. At night, every time I breathe, it’s like there’s someone squeeze my heart, knowing that I won’t be able to breathe the same air that you breathe anymore, knowing that I won’t be able to give you a good night kiss, knowing I won’t be able to hear you breathe next to me…

I don’t know how can I go through the day knowing you won’t be here next to me. Knowing you won’t welcome me home, it brings tears to my eyes. I don’t know how to live in the world without you in it. But I don’t want you to feel my pain Bao, you should go on…

Do you still remember when I asked you “Are you a secret agent Bao?” with one raised eyebrow, I looked at you suspiciously, and you just laugh at me with those beautiful eyes and licked my face. You were a secret agent that God sent to my family. I must have done something right to deserve this bless. Do you still remember the song I used to sing for you at night Bao? When there were just the two of us, and I held you in my arm. It’s a beautiful song, perfectly describe how I feel about you. I’m not the best singer, but I hope you liked it when I softly scratched your tummy and kissed your eyes while singing this song….

First time I saw Bao Bao, I knew I was in love
She was the gift I got, from somewhere up above
O wow, o yes, o joy, so joy right here in my arms
She looks at me, I can see she’s showing all her charms
Can’t remember what I do before I saw her face
But now she’s here and I can feel her amazing grace

I never knew I could feel love like this, till I met you, Bao. For the last 2 years, there was not a day that went by without a smile or a laugh because of you. Your beautiful eyes and smile never failed to brighten my day. To be able to hug you was like the most peaceful feeling in this world. Seeing your smile was like knowing things are going to be okay. Everyone says how lucky you are to have me, but the truth is, I was the one who’s lucky to have you. I hope I treated you well. It’s a privilege to have you here, a luxury that not everyone is lucky enough to experience. There are no words can describe the pain of losing you nor how much I love you. But I have to let you go, “to love is to let go”, right? But how come it’s really hard to let you go while I truly love you. I want to give back your unconditional love by letting you go Bao, I really do. I thank God that I can be with you till the last moment of your life, holding you in my hands. I hope you are in heaven now, I’ll pray to God every night to tell Him how good you were as my dog, how beautiful you were because I put your new clothes and clean you up to be ready to face Him. As I used to say to you, Bao Bao good girl, smart girl, I love you Bao.

I was falling like a fool for you, do you know that Bao? Every time you looked at me, I fell a little further, I just couldn’t help it. There’s nothing you can do to make me love you less. Your memories will live forever in my heart, will you remember me too Bao? Thank you for miraculous 2 years, even it’s only a short of time, my life will never be the same again, you have changed my life in a way that I never expected you would be, a piece of my heart goes with you. Thank you for all your love lessons. Rest in peace my little girl, my little angel, my secret agent, Xiao Bao Bao…Till we meet again sweet heart.